Because It's May

 

i'm dreading this month, i've been dreading it
for a long time now. and on the first of May
i cried and cried because THAT DAY is
coming and, yeah, i'd like to be able to
"move on" and i'd like to think that it's over
and done, but i don't think it's ever easy to
get over being raped, do you?

so i'm nuts. like i was nuts last march
or whenever. i just go fucking nuts
because anniversaries are a big deal to
me. it's how i mark the passing of time.
and the 24th of May is a big deal to me.

it's the day i was raped. it was the day i did
everything i could to stay alive.

so i'm just nuts.

denise

 

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