Hell Revisited

 

i don't know what's wrong with me.
my mind gets stuck in this stupid
groove and i can't derail it. so
i sit or i lay and my mind goes its
own way, refuses to go to places
less hurtful.

i don't want my mind to wander to
those places, visit those people,
think these thoughts. i don't like
it.

there is nothing i can do to change
an outcome. thinking about it has
no power to change it. all the wishing,
dreaming, wanting will not change it.

so why does my mind do this?

24 hours now. i've been reliving and feeling
those feelings for 24 hours.

i want it to end now, please.

denise

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